Explain what triggered your last kiss?
Saying goodbye >.<
What do you want for your birthday?
A flat?
When's the last time you said you were okay, but really weren't?
Yesterday
When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?
Monday
Is there anyone who doesn't like you?
Yes and I don't like them either xD
Do you consider yourself lucky?
Lol. No
Have you ever been awake for 2 days straight?
Yes
Are you mad at someone right now?
Slightly
Are you happy?
At this moment in time no, but in my current state its understandable
Do you miss anyone?
Yes
Do you believe ex's can be friends?
Yes
Who was the last person you took a picture with?
Adam
Is anything bothering you?
Yeah.
Who's bed did you last fall asleep other than your own bed?
Adams?
What are you craving at the moment?
Food =/ And Im not allowed any
What do you hear?
"every little helps" =O BUDWEISER
Are you in a good mood right now?
Not really.
Do you want kids?
Not atm.
Is there someone who has made a difference in your life?
Yesh. More than one
When is the last time you cried?
Yesterday....
Have you ever licked the back of a CD to try to get it to work?
Indeed so
Have you ever had a crush on a teacher?
HELL NO
Do you walk around the house naked/in your underwear?
Yes
Why aren't you dating the last person you texted?
I am dating them xD
Would you rather be blind or deaf?
Neither?
What do you do as soon as you walk in the house?
Take off my coat.
Do you like horror or comedy?
Prefer comedy
Where do you want to live when you are old?
>.< Idk
What did you dream last night?
Nothing. I didnt sleep well.
Are you named after anyone?
Nope
Have you ever caught a fish?
Nope
What color are your eyes?
Greeny blue
Know anyone named Jessica?
Yesh
Have you ever fallen asleep in someone's arms?
=] yes
Do you hate being alone?
Depends.
Are you tanned?
Lmao
Have you ever been out past curfew?
Plenty.
Is there a girl that knows everything or mostly everything about you?
Yes
Who was the last person you cried in front of?
No one. Maybe some randomers on the street
Do you miss school?
I miss the people. Not the place.
Have you ever had a dream about MySpace?
Nope.
What could you not go without during the day?
Sleep
What are you planning on doing after this?
Idk
Do you still talk to the person you last kissed?
Yesh
Have you ever liked someone that was in a relationship?
Uh huh
If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
Hm. No
Have you ever had your heart broken?
Uh huh
Do you think you've changed over the past year?
In some ways. I saw someone I hadn't seen in a year and well... they said I was different.
Have you ever slept in the same bed as your friends?
Yeaaah
Do you like watching scary movies?
Okayish
Have you ever intentionally made someone jealous?
ahaha yeah
What do you think about scene/emo kids?
Nothing?
Who was the first person you told about your first kiss?
No one xD
Do you know anyone with such a terribly annoying voice that you can't even stand?
Yeahhh
Do you think you'll be married in 5 years?
Probably not.
Think a lot before you fall asleep?
Yep
Who was the last person to give you a hug?
My brother =D
Are you excited for something?
Yeah
Do you like your bed?
No. xD
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chawutt- October 28th, 18:30
nauseated
- Its been a while.
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- chawutt
- October 26th, 15:58
Is it just me or has everything gone topsy turvy. This is what happens when I lose touch with the world. Ah well. I like this distance. It makes life more exciting. Keeps you pumped up.
- Like chairs have feelings...
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- chawutt
- October 12th, 0:39
drained
I'm frustrated.
Then again what do I expect?
I'm an optimistic person in a shitty world.
I smile and I take it. I always take it. Whatever people throw at me.
I don't hold grudges.
I just get over things.
It just makes me want to hit things.
I give it all.
And what do I get back?
Nothing.
- Don't Stop.... BELIEVING =D
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- chawutt
- October 10th, 1:06
bouncy
YesterdayI felt like I was floating on air =]
Yesterday was GOOOOOD!
Media. Always a joy. Funny as always =D
Went to Ajs for lunch with Adam <3
Then photography.
I went out with Adam =D Fun fun fun =D
We killed his printer (Y)
My ticket ran out so I gots a Mcds and they gave me a Mchicken sandwich by mistake in my happy meal (H)
Hell yes... I gte happy meals... coz im THAT cool... Lmao
I gots a taxi.
Really good convo with the drive...
Came home. Mother was drunk to hell. Funny as though xD She said some random as hell stuff
Today
Woke up. Felt ill. AGAIN.
But thanks to Josh xD He woke me up. And made me feel lazy xD
I skipped art. And just went in at my free period and met with adam and bryn =D
Saw like everyone =D
Welsh Bacc. Caught up a bit. Mostly just bitched with Lloyd xDWalked back with him and Lou. Then went to work. Had a great laugh being on drive thru xD Lee kept making me laugh xD Then I had Luke singing epic songs which I JUST had to join in with. Lee gave me his jacket =D But then he went so I had to give it back and just wore Adams <3 Just messed about with Dean and Duncan then.We dressed Duncan in a bin bag and I dound out Duncan was English so we were like (H) People kept asking me for my number ¬¬ Lee was like actually she puts her number on all the receipts for you ¬¬
Then I kinda like DROPPED the til... Lmao SO NOT good.
Kinda spent like 20mins with Steph... I cashed in a £1,713 today. I was pretty chuffed xD That was only in cash not cards =D
Now. Im at home. And yeah. Dad tomorrow =D And Adammmm =D Plus WAGAMAMMA... maybe... xD And NEW laptop. ^^ I must remember to get some plain tops for Panda =D
- what a tedious day
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- chawutt
- October 7th, 20:33
Well one thing is good... I don't have swine flu =D
I just have a virus... you know that's MUCH better xD
I'm feeling better too =D
Well physically.My head however is a different matter =/
- I can't think of anyone I hate missing as much as I hate missing you.
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- chawutt
- October 6th, 21:05
crushed
I'm still ill...
I hate this... Being alone... makes me think too much.
I failed today. I failed badly.
And I failed no one but myself.
I did try.
But its hard to make things over with someone who doesn't want the same.
He said that they wanted me to friends still... I doubt that. A lot. They don't care.
I keep telling myself I shouldnt either. But... I can't help it =/
- AN idea for english lit... (i was bored you dont ahve to read it)
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- chawutt
- October 6th, 13:03
A fly buzzed into the television screen hardly making a difference over the drone of the newsreader. The only occupier of the room wasn't paying much attention to it anyway. Brad didn't have to. He already had the show memorised. It sickened him to think that they continued showing the same programmes again and again. Was it meant to be sentimental? Nostalgic? It just saddened Brad to think that all the newsreader was worried about was the rain. What Brad would give to be worried about rain! Then again, that was the naiivity of the human race a decade ago.
Brad wondered if it was a stroke of luck that he had skipped college that morning ten years ago. Brad was 16 at the time and full of himself. So full of himself he felt it was unnecessary for him to attend college that morning and sleep instead. Sighing, Brad reached for his chipped mug of coffee. It was a treat, he knew he should ration his coffee. There wasn't much left. Scratching his head, Brad shuffled to the window and peered out of the curtains. It was dreary out and the clouds hung heavy full of snow. The wind whined like a dog left in the cold. A typical day in June. Brad knew he should in theory use a day like this to venture out for supplies. In theory, in theory but it wasn't as simple as that. Sure enough he heard a thump on the window. He'd been spotted. He still didn't know what to describe them as. Zombies? Creatures? Mutants? They were human once. Sighing, he picked up his father's old rifle and left the room. He slowly climbed the stairs, he had grown used to this. He remembered a time when he was scared, his heart racing as he fought to survive. Now it was just a daily ritual. He'd gotten to his old bedroom, its window overlooked the street and the creature down below. It was still thumping listlessly at the window as if it hoped Brad would suddenly jump through the glass. Lighting a cigarette, Brad opened the window, the cold pounced him gnawing hungrily at his bones. Ignoring this Brad pushed his head and torso out of the window and took aim. Bang! The creature fell to the floor.
Brad started to retreat out of the window when he noticed something. There was someone watching him across the street.
- Writer's Block: Sick day
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- chawutt
- October 5th, 22:14
I stay at home. By myself. And lie in bed all day... And wish that i could be doted on by my beloved <3
- =D
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- chawutt
- October 3rd, 0:24
chipper
Well...
Tbh. I love my friends.
And my boyfriend =D
Had a crappy beginning. But awesome ending.
Had the injection made me feel shitty... so I skiived off welsh bacc and work to be with adam. Then Hannah texted me =D Then online with people =D
Panda cheered me up =D
Some people are dickheads =DLike he said. Fuck them. Its now that matters. He is seriously awesome =D BATSSSSS ^^ And llamaaa =D Woop woop
Tomorrow should be good... well after work xD
Then Sundays =D
Hmmm... really need to start my story >.< GAH
- Thoughts
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- chawutt
- October 2nd, 11:24
I have every right to have crappy self-esteem it just got prooved.
She shoved me onto a computer - stop me from destroying the book whilst all the talent gets on with it.Damn people. I want a fag =/
Well... I'm having that injection soon. Im scared shitless. I hate needles. Ech, ech.At least I see adam after =D Curly Fries AJ's <3 Nommmm
I love him =D He so caring, awesome and =D Just <3I get to see my best friends on saturday =D YAY
Sunday = photography with another awesome person =D And shoppingness.
Then 12th I go with Liz and we appreciate good music and kill EMA people with staplers =D Oh yes...
Hmmm See my Dad saturday. Adam is so nervous. I keep telling him he don;t need to be. He's all I need, and the only one I love and that's all that matters.
I need to have this reflection off my chest after reading other people's LJs.
I know I;ve been acting a total asshole but its only in response to him. Lee has changed. Its like the Lee I knew died and someone else is pretending to be him. He was one of my best friends and then I just lost him. Like he died. Somehow its worse because he isnt dead really. Its just that he changed. Well I guess it was never meant to work out. Though he does seem happy and never talks to me anymore which proves he doesnt need me or want to be my friend no more, which if its easier and happier for him I guess its better. His LJ proves that Im just a whiney ex now. So you know. I should just stop caring, but I can't. It hurts but I know I deserve it.I want to go see Payton and Winch House but i know that two of my exs will be there. So not fun. Probably be away then anyway with Adam =]
The people in my art class are awesome tbf. Random as fuck =D Can't wait to Barcelona.
I need to begin my story. But its hard. Dystopian is hard as hell.I wanna see the Holloways... I love them =D but you need to be over 18 even though I gpt served =D
Anyway. Must dash. Meant to be researching
- Well
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- chawutt
- September 29th, 11:38
hungry
*sigh*
Im so happy.
I'm in love.
And Im never ever gonna want anyone else.
I only love him.
Adam cheered me up when I was crying yesterday.
He's just amzing =DLOl.. and still other people like me. I got asked out by so many people lately. Im like umm Im taken... xD Ah... Its funny.
I'm SO glad I am not single. Then again if I wasnt in love and I was single well... I wouldnt be single anyway =D
- An emotional whirlwind...
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- chawutt
- September 27th, 2:17
- chipper
Today I broke down.
Cried my eyes out.
I've smoked so much today...
Stress. yes... its bad...
Then I went into town...
And KABOOM. Happiness =D
^^ Very happy atm =D
Looking forward to Monday already =')
- Save me now....
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- chawutt
- September 25th, 0:43
lethargic
Well.
What a situation.
I don't me and adam are getting back together.
I don't think I can go to Coopers at all - not that I did anyway - coz all of his friends hate me.Most people hate me now.
They make out that I did some terrible thing.
Yes. Cheating is terrible. But its different when you love someone.
And now he cant' seem to understand how much Lee cant stand me now. So you know... Fail xD
Its weird. I always knew taht Yasmin hated me. I always said she did. She said Im a twat - well done xD and that Im uncool LMAO. Oh Im so insulted. Like I didnt know what I was. Stupid cow xDOn the upside. I'm becoming creative. Poems, songs and art. All full of ideas. S'all good.
Did a songa bout Lee... wish I could sing it xD But it needs work. I wanna train myself to sing. Also have one about adam. God. I need a life xD
All I do is moan about guys. And none of them care about me lmao.
I changed my status on fb o.O feels odd.... This... singleness... Odd.
It hurt to see Adam. The way he was with me. Like I was dirt on the floor he disgustingly walked around. *sigh* why do I fall in love with people who dont ever care? I go for people who I know don't give a shit. About me. At all.
Then again. I am a slut =/ Funsies. Bye x
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- chawutt
- September 22nd, 23:10
blah
Do you consider yourself lucky?
No. Shitty luck
Are you happy?
I'm happy with some parts of my life.
Do you believe ex’s can be friends?
In time. It usually fucks up though because they fade away, or hate you. Sometimes it works out. Sometimes, no. But I guess that's my fault.
Who was the last person you took a picture with?
Um... Liz?
Do you think that you have made a difference in someones life?
Yes. Whether that;s a good thing or not it depends.
Are you named after anyone?
No.
Who can make you feel better in a difficult situation?
It used to be easy, but now people who I used to depend on don't care. So now really, only Adam, Hannah or Liz can.
Have you ever liked someone so much, it hurt?
Yes. It ripped my heart out. Now my heart is still scarred.
Have you ever fallen asleep in someone’s arms?
Yes. Its the best thing in the world.
Why are you NOT going out with the person you want?
I'm with Adam. I don't think he would be too happy if I was with anyone else.
Are you okay with making a total fool of yourself?
Hey. Its a daily thing (Y)
If you had the chance to move out of your current house right now, would you?
Yes. I want my own place.
What would you do if a stranger came up to you and said you are the most attractive person they have seen?
Blush and probably disagree.
Did anyone see you kiss the last person you kissed on the lips?
Yes
Do you like to cuddle?
I do =] I like hugging someone for ages and ages and I never wanna let go. But they always do =/
Have you kissed someone this year that means a lot to you?
Yes. And I don't regret anything.
What is the last medicine you consumed?
I have no idea.
What's something you really want right now, be honest?
A cuddle.
What did you do yesterday?
Work.
Want someone back in your life?Yes. But I've got a feeling its too late =/
Can you honestly say you're okay right now?
No.
Are you a jealous person?
Yes. If I'm honest. I really am. Stupidly jealous, but I never show it.
Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?
More than one.
Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
Yes. But not that many chances. After a while, its too tedious and you grow to dislike them.
Missing someone you shouldn't be?
I can miss who I want to miss. So yes. I do. A lot.
Have you ever been heartbroken?
Yes. Many times. Sometimes I've caused it myself.
Have you ever gotten in a car by yourself with people you just met?
Yes
Have you ever asked a boy for advice?
Yes. I still do. Well... the boy's who care anyway.
Do you like to hold or be held?Both.
Has anyone made you feel like crap lately for something they did?
Yes.
Say the last person you kissed was kissing someone right in front of you?
I'd cry. Runaway and probably try and find solace in Hannah or Liz. As they are only ones who would care.
Where did you last sleep other than your own bed?
Adams.
Ever kissed a Jessica, Rachel, Sussan, or Zoe?
No.
Has anyone cheated on their bf/gf with you?
Lol, yes.
Are you a morning person or a night person?
Defo a night person.
Is there just some people that you don't get along with?
Yes. ¬¬ He needs to be chucked out a window, preferably the 10th floor. I know plenty who would help me =D
Is something wrong with you right now?
Yes. I'm never satisfied when I'm alone.
Are you lying to yourself about something?
Yes. But... oh well.
Do you like anyone right now?
Yes.
What about the opposite sex can you just not understand?
How they always assume things, and that they never show their feelings.
If someone could be cuddling you right now, who would you want it to be?
Adam.
How do you handle things?
Badly. I usually turn things into a worst case scenario, cry, and go fuck, fuck, fuck a lot.
Do you think your chances with someone have been ruined?Yes.
If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
Well...
Now listen to me baby
Before i love and leave you
They call me heart breaker
I don't wanna decieve you
If you fall for me
I'm not easy to please
I'mma tear you apart
Told you from the start, baby from the start.
I'm only gonna break break ya break break ya heart.
I so feel like that sing is about me. Everytime I hear it. I sing along. With emotion.
Do you like or have a crush on anyone? Do they know?
Yes. Yes. Like knowing is gonna sort anything xD
Four things about the preferred sex that you first notice?
Eyes. I'ma sucker for blue/grey eyes.Hair. Gotta have nice hair.Dress. Unchavvy
Smile. I'm a sucker for teethy cheesey smiles =D
Who are you thinking about right now?
Several people.
Is there anyone that could make your day if they showed up at your house?
Yes =]
If you switch 'e' with 'a', 'n' with 'c', and 'l' with 'x' what's your name?
Nherxotta O.o wth!
When was the last time someone gave you a compliment?
Today.
When will you next see the one who completely takes your breath away?
No idea.
Would you pay someone to kill the last person who hurt you most?
No. He doesnt deserve to die. And he doesnt know that he has hurt me. It be cold blooded =P
Has anything happened to you within the past month that has made you sad?
Yes.
Is there someone you wouldn't mind kissing right now?
Yes/
Have you ever slept in the same bed with the last person you kissed?
Yes
Do you think two people can last forever?
Its a possibility. A slim one.
Have you ever been in love?
Yes.
Have you ever had two dates in one night?
Yes.
Anything you'd like to say to someone?
Yes, but I won't.
The last person you kissed needs you at 3am, would you go?
Yes.
Can you walk into a room full of strangers and maintain your confidence?
No. I'd go shy. Silent. Can't deal with people.
We all change, right?
I've changed. He changed, they alll changed. But... some people don't. They were always unreliable. They were always using you, until they find someone better. God, she is stupid... And he. Well he was always twat. My friends were right. What a dick.
Ever made out in a car?
Yes.
Would you rather hang with a bunch of girls or boys?
Mixtureeee
- Big fish, little fish!
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- chawutt
- September 18th, 22:31
- hyper
So yeah.
Odd week...
I love college. Its so different from school. So much better =D
Met some awesome peoples...
Feel like people fading though =/
Kinda gay.Today was awesome =D
Hung out with Sioned even though she was like I see my bf xD And Hannah came out too =D
Had SO much caffeine.. talked to a guy about micro chipping lmao, found looney tunes things and we did them like JUMP JUMP JUMP... then we were lilke RIVER!!!! Lol... Was amusing... =PTomorrow should be good also =P Well not the night >.<
Lmao... I think someone fancies him xD xD LMAO... feel sorry for him...Omg... what if they go out? EW! Thats like wrong on so many levels xD
Doo doo dooo totally not bitching xD
Ahahha I am covered in ink... dont know why... totally didnt drop ink... NO? =OIT CROWD!!!!!!!
EEEEEP =D
Hmm... But yeah lol she still doesnt like me... Got blatent evils today xD Hilarious... totally bitched about me =P
But hmm... He's different... I dont like it =/ He changes =/*sigh* He totally blanked me... =/ I dont blame him tbh... he probably doesnt wanna see me no more.
- Finally!
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- chawutt
- September 8th, 22:53
- bouncy
I found that thrill.
I was searching for it... It was like I hooked to a drug without knowing.
Now I'm hooked. Boo hoo for me =P
^^ Looking forward to it already ^^Todayy was scary at first. Had the scare of my life. She of all people in my welsh bacc class xD I have a feeling Welsh bacc will be much more intersting xD
Well... except that a whole day of it pretty much blew.
Met some pretty cool people (Y)
They casted me as the presentator... so Im guessing that's a good thing...The criterea was: Confident, persuasive and friendly =D
So SHOOP DA WOOP
And... I only have til 12 tomorrow =D Then no college til Monday OOOH YEAAAHHmmph. NEED ¬¬
NEEEEED.
must wait... til... tomorrow mmmm ^_^
Nom nom nom nom nom...
Hmph. I'm still annoyed tbh.
Spesh now after what I heard.
Some people are silly...
14th December ^^ Oh yeaaah xD
- Hypnotised by mirrors...
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- chawutt
- September 1st, 22:32
blank
Fuck this.
Seriously. Fuck this.
Can't one thing go fucking right for once?No.
Because its me.
And I'm a fucking.... words fail me.
I'm sure everyone will be fucking fine without me...
I won;t be missed.
Nope. Not at all.. I'm already being forgottenThere's me deluding myself... oh they hate me....
Lol... I dream they would hate me... oh but no... its not even hatred...I've just been forgotten. No surprise really. I am just a pile of crap, a fuck up and Im contagious. I'm like a fucking virus.
I give up. I really fucking do.
- I thought everyone loved you?
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- chawutt
- August 30th, 19:40
mellow
So today was odd... oddly relaxing with Gabe. It was nice to talk to him.
I felt so mellow after.I walked around for ages in the rain, I didn't wanna go home just then.
I just left my hood down and let my hair soak through and carried a cappuchino in my hand.I worked out why I felt like this... and I felt ashamed.... I shouldn't crave things like that.
- No more aces to play
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- chawutt
- August 29th, 22:56
A lot has happened to me emotionally lately. I wish somehow I could fade into a wall... I really do. I hate this.
And now... I feel upset... why? I have no right to be. None at all... I;m so stupid.... why am I getting hetted up about something like that anyway. I should be happy for him. But no I feel upset. What did I honestly expect? Of course it would happen.
